Of irrational anger ... and entitlement?

So, I applied for a spot on a site visit to Alnwick Castle in Scotland last week, and it never occurred to me that I wouldn't get to go. (Hence the entitlement portion of today's title.) So when it was announced that a less senior colleague in my own department was going instead today? I kinda flipped out internally.

I'm not a throwing-things type, but I was tempted.

So It makes me wonder why I was so pissed that I don't get to go?

Frankly, it's the end of term, I'm tired, and I'm stressed. Fantasizing about going to "Hogwarts" (the movies were filmed at Alnwick) was doing a lot for my mental health.

Oh, well. I'm told there may be future opportunities to go. I'll cross my fingers for that.

And maybe write a little more HP fan fiction.